Simply put, your circumstance cannot change until you develop a state of mind that will produce the change.
A shift in perspective (renewed state of mind) and self-reconciliation will have you living from a place of truth and will be THE MOST powerful decision you will ever make for yourself, your life and the people in it.
Why?  Because it is your truth in action.
Question: how long are you going to watch others do what you want to do and experience in life?